scribbling letters

moving on

2006-10-22T10:25:00.000-07:00

i will no longer update this blog, i'm moving onto

http://www.thebluewalker.blogspot.com

blogger beta=better...daw :D

karma

2006-10-10T04:10:00.000-07:00

umiikot ang mundo. got screwed in a lot in my deal a while ago. hahahaha bilog ang mundo. better get my gear on again.

fucked up theo orals, well not really but i left a bad lasting impression because i wasn't able to answer the last question. expecting a d or a c. shitty...

psych stuff... argh!!! daming trabaho. com100 and com101 now, hay the sooner we finish the better so i can actually study for finals.

never wear was fun! haha andrew ty lookalikes :D will post pic eventually. don't have it yet :D

saturday

2006-10-07T05:30:00.000-07:00

impromptu madness

i wake up, planning to do my theo when i get a text from mark. he says, wala ata akong gagawin,, tambay ako jan b4 mass. well, i was planning to go shopping ... so yeah... so we both went to rp to get my never wear stuff and some groceries for dad's birthday dinner, yes...i'm the one who's preparing it... ok, just realized that i have no noodle dish...damn...will figure this out kahit instant noodles lang kaya??? noooooooooooooooooooooo...

went back home tapos lunch kami then off to sjcs when kathy called and asked if she could be picked up at up. the more the merrier so why not.

pingpong. mass. pingpong. ayan. it was fun seeing friends, talking, cavorting, teasing, sharing. schubert, richmond, me, mark, and leo and kathy. sayang si clar.

it would've extended to a binondo dinner but oh well. we all went our separate ways home.

it was fun. to some extend.

on other news. i'm happy with the way i conducted myself earlier talking to young girl. i was diplomatic, inviting, and patient. self-restraint is a good thing. i have learned a lot from psychology as well as my directors. i now know how it is to have to deal with difficult people. however, i still do not know if i have made the changes i wanted to make. only time will tell.

growing up... growing up...

rofl

2006-10-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

admu lost to ust.

sigh... no bonfire, no booze all you want... possibly for the rest fo my undergraduate life. why, graduating players and teh ubiquitous dlsu.

congratulations to ust though as well as the admu ballers for a well-played game. tight match. 400 years is something and a uaap basketball win in ten years just tops the cake.

tagal mo naman sumagot, kaya siguro sumusuko lahat ng suitors mo sayo.

anyone who has seen subtext would know that to be one of my lines. today, i had the urge to send this text before catching myself and doubling over in laughter. i wonder if i'm ready to give out that kind of subtext. i think i am, but still... (insert start of something new) ROFL

we'll see boys, we'll see.

directing is awesome. it feels great to be able to put the things i've learned from macky and niel into good use. i've learned a lot, i think i'm beginning to sound like a good director, judging by the output of the dubbing. let's just hope i can do better and encourage my charges to stay true to their characters. oh and choreography, that's right folks, i'm choreographing!!!

$$$... i need a job...

homework is starting to pile up again, major ones this time. orals for theo and com101 final project, as well as com100 final project... a bit more and i can take a break.

thursday, i hope i can see father nick.

looking back

2006-10-01T06:04:00.000-07:00

the strongest typhoon to hit the manila since 1995, milenyo really shook up some stuff. classes for thursday and friday were suspended because of the impending weather. subsequently, electricity took a leave of absence.

life... as a rock... for a couple of days. anyone who has been to my house knows that my room is poorly-lit, naturally anyway. so reading was out of the question. sleep. eat. sleep. eat. kill eyes reading. sleep. eat. kill eyes playing the piano. sleep. eat. internet for a while, laptop hehe. sleep. eat. a great way to spend some free time. though free is relative (i have a couple of papers due...)

it's tough to live with only 2 candles and no emergency light and whatnot. its even harder to get info from people because your signal keeps rollercoastering. but then, lights eventually came on.

looking back at the typhoon and what it wrought, we can say that we really have to start making for preparations and precautions for such. looking at newspaper articles about them (brilliant how newspapers were still being circulated and produced despite the power outage and weather!!! good job!) several billboards crashed and damaged roads and cars/buses. a kfc post was pushed by the wind and was only prevented from falling by the electric wires.

when i had to go to school on saturday, the roads were littered with leaves, twigs and sometimes whole trees. ADMU fared no better, but the administration was on it apparently. you don't hear chainsaw sounds everyday in shcool now do you. it was really disturbing seeing age-old trees uprooted. some of them had their branches decapitated, and some only had stumps left to show for their existence. bellarmine field looked really messy, but only a few trees were damaged, with their christmas lights still hanging on them notwithstanding!

laws on billboards have to be revised and stricly enforced. more trees are needed to stay floods. drainage and sewage plans have to be fixed.

on a personal note, our family has to have a safe stock of candles, flashlights and... gas... and canned goods.

life goes on...

hope everything works out well for everyone hurt by the typhoon.

omedetou tanjoubi gozaimas howeru-san

2006-09-26T08:46:00.000-07:00

an impromptu get-together for howell's birthday! MANI wasn't in full swing but it wasn't hard to fill the air with the laughs and jokes of yesteryears. damn we're old.

standard stuff at howell's : youtube, dinner, poker, and dota.

no pingpong, no billiards, but then again it wasn't an overnight. so tonight foreshadows the traditional overnight! sem break is around the corner. specially since some people might be leaving the country.

that's life.

goodbyes and hellos
encompassing life, love, roads
saving all we can

sad sad weekend

2006-09-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

what a waste of a perfectly fine weekend...

saturday was nstp then prerelease. i arrived at galleria at around 12 after nstp and registered...to my horror...for flight I. that's right boys "I "

a couple of hours later...

at 5, things finally cooked up for me. did miserably. crappy card pool. no weenies, at all, no decent low-casting spells. everybody was a heavy-hitter. so it screws the curve. hay... 1-3.

got loads of crap too.

the next day. bawi daw... but sadly, didn't make it to the cut-off of players because ng ran out of products haha. more than 500 people attended the previous day.

so... fish and i, and marcelle (yeah limited daw pagtritripan niya!!!) went to explore the mall. we checked out sm san lazaro's arcades, had a few fun games. lupit ni marcelle sa mvsc2!!! inf ironman combo. that was at worlds of fun. we scooted over to quantum where we went to play dance maniax. lol 5 songs. nakakapagod haha. i did really miserably, failing the last song. then marcelle gave it a whirl, apparently he loves the game as well and for him it's more about style haha got some vids of him dancing. then we had lunch at congo grille. bad service. really really bad service. the waitresses (cute uniforms though) took too damn long to take our orders. food was ok. had a lot of interesting stuff said during lunch, about careers, life, humor... makes me wonder about what i'll be like when i graduate. then we watched DOA.

brainless, plotless waste of money and time. cute girls though. action scenes were ok. but brainless, plotless... fan service movie. really funny how the movie seems like a game. life meter! benta talaga!!! it was funny how the movie had video game tendencies, from voice-ins to script to camera angles. haha laugh trip. really bad stuff. don't watch it.

trailers were the redeeming part of the day. i want to watch some movies... the prestige, which is about two rival magicians and what's the movie with mark wahlberg, jack nicholson, leonardo di caprio and denis hoffman(not sure though)??? oh and directed by MARTIN SCORCESE!!?!? woah man! and ben stiller's night at the museum looks promising haha.

well another weekend has passed, let the monday begin!!!

3 weeks to go...

God bless the internet

2006-09-21T08:01:00.000-07:00

found a lot of goodies today.

apart from the will and grace theme music sheet that i've been looking for since the show aired.

i now have some more librettos :D

and also some mainstream songs :D

eventually i will get the time to play and learn all these.
eventually i will get the movie version of por una cabeza and play it on the violin
eventually i will play the violin solo of suteki da ne
eventually i will learn to play the guitar
eventually i will learn the pieces i PROMISED to learn last summer and sem break.

eventually :D

time spiral ... time spiral ... time spiral ... time spiral ... time spiral ... time spiral ... time spiral ... time spiral ...

here's to opening foil flying men and psionic blasts :D

eventually :D

and oh yeah, a set of ravagers and a set of glimmervoids woohoo, another deck finished.

i love ad

2006-09-20T07:42:00.000-07:00

i attended a seminar/workshop for advertising today. great stuff. its inspiring to see great works of art, yeah we talked about that, in our country.

seeing the process was intriguing and interesting! i have lots to learn.

photoshop... hehe i shall best you this sem break LOL!!!

oh tea, 3rd because wala lang, why? you wanna be the first?

welcome to version 3.0

2006-09-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

its good to reinvent oneself.

yeah! thank you mark for fixing my blog layout. it has a van gogh feel to it which i love. i'll learn html and make some more changes haha :D and i'll add a midi player there na rin one of these days.

one day at a time. all the responsibilities are coming in :D

hahaha oh wells... tawa lang at malilipas din ang mga problema.

2006-09-16T09:50:00.000-07:00

what a night!
"best show yet!"

i feel great, really happy.

and now, the challenge is to preserve the quality and increase the repeatability.
soliman cruz and roence santos rocked!!! best subtext 3 i've seen. pros...drool...

skills :D

yeba!!!

last show...for now :D
i have to focus on my acads now. com 100 and com 101 projects. psych enrichment project. fil gorup report. and of course...FINALS FOR EVERYBODY!!!

kaya ko to. let's hope i can end this blasted sem well.

random rumblings, really random

2006-09-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

i forgot CHUNKS today, memory problem for tonight's show. rather depressing how i only noticed at the end of the run. direq had an explanation, he said that i was more intense tonight and that got in the way of my memory. i guess he's right, though my mind was fumbling about...the lcd thing was such a wildcard, i was visualizing it the whole time.

during notes he called to my attention a lot of things i need to fix, not just in my theatre life but in my journey through life altogether. why do i walk around, ashamed of myself. my self-confidence is low. and yes i do have hang-ups about the way i look. i blame a lot of people for it, and most importantly, since blame ends with me, i blame myself for all the s@#t i did and didn't do early on in my life.

i'm not in love. was i ever in love? no really... did i really love phoebe (at the back of my head i'm also asking whether she loved me back as well...) or was she a phase in life that i just had to go through, suffering from being bombarded at all sides with images of so-called love. was i just lonely, was i just attracted? what is love. i want to be able to sing grow old with you and tired loving you to a woman. so far, i can sing those to lorina, in a BROTHERLY way (DON'T GET ANY IDEAS MANI, BARKADA INC, and random people who stumble upon my blog.)

first off... love. haha if you are in love, direq says, magsusulat ka at mapapatumbling ka, and he follows it up with kung magbreak kayo magsusulat ka rin at mapapatumbling ka nanaman. so is this why i haven't been able to write anything decent? hahahaha the markness of me (go rentheads) is coming out. when you are in love, or in the puppy love or the antilove stage when everything suddenly has a purpose and is part of a grand plan called destiny, i'm pretty sure i've been there. but moving forward, i guess that's something for me to ponder about.

i am attracted to some women right now. there's this one girl who my family has been subtly forcing me to pursue. another girl who's about to leave my life and become as unreachable as a "close" friend of mine. and the winsome and lovely girl i danced with sa... (haha wag niyo na alamin!) attracted mind you. just attracted.

random thought going on. next thing to talk about. LRT, i'm griping... i just need to get this out because i see so many people doing it everyday.

WILL YOU A@#HOLES STOP HOGGING THE F#@KING ESCALATORS?! AND OH, WHEN YOU PRICKS FINALLY GET OFF THE ESCALATOR TO THE TRAIN THATS ABOUT TO LEAVE, PLEASE DO F@#KING HURRY BECAUSE THERE ARE DOZENS OF PEOPLE BEHIND YOU WHO WOULD'VE BEEN UP THERE EARLIER IF YOU WEREN'T F@#KING HOGGING THE ESCALATORS!!! IF YOU AREN'T IN A HURRY, OTHER PEOPLE ARE!

end of rant.

The sound of music

no literally... some songs touch the heart. lyrics and music go hand-in-hand in inducing reveries or erections. (somewhere in time versus buttons) i would like to write music and lyrics that intelligent people would love. (oh and screw you KAILANGAN PA BA IMEMORIZE YAN BRAT! you've successfully made the Philippines a dumber country.) anyway, how do these composers know the right notes, the right intensities; how do they figure out the patterns to these to make melodies. lately, i've been listening to some classical chinese songs, thanks anson!!
朋友 (peng you) really hits home as the quintessential friendship song. i've been reflecting on the lyrics. the way the melody was written also makes for a poignant tune. at some point, the song always makes me cry.

原来你什么都不想要 (yuan lai ni shi mi dou bo xiang yao) is one of those LSSs that just doesn't go away. i've had that LSS since high school, its a great song! i somehow see gabriella from high school musical sing it in her high school music music video fashion, in chinese of course :D no bastardizations like MYMP on
朋友 please.

tomorrow, or rather, later on today. i will be pre-enlisting for my second sem courses. am i really set on ad pr... hay life... so many choices. if only i could stop time to think more. i find myself thinking more often these days. i've been at my favorite nook at wai ying twice this week drinking their tea and just thinking before my meal comes along. oh btw lemon chicken rocks! while i eat i can't help but notice other tables full of people. it is really reminiscent of barkada inc. haha but they were all grown up already. i really wonder, whether or not we will still have time or access to each other when we are ten or so years older. lots of pranks around their table, friendly banter and the unmistakable sighs of parents comparing themselves with their single friends. haha i can only imagine what our barkada could look like when we've all grown up. i'm pretty sure clarizel would be the first to get married, followed by mark, then mattea. but who knows :D only time will tell.

and undoubtedly there will be a post about magic. brokeback pa rin... hay... lots of stuff i want. the bling bug has bitten me. DAMN YOU FRANZ!!! hahaha oh well. i'll just see if i can make all ends meet.

til then, have a nice day!

things to do/resolutions

2006-09-11T00:48:00.000-07:00

i have to fix my life.

again, i have to :
1. clean my room
2. organize cards (type 1 cards...)
3. buy binder and sleeves for team
4. exercise everyday
5. drink enough water everyday.
6. read more.
7. write more.
8. study.
9. shop for more clothes.
10. save money.

sablay nanaman sa tourney

2006-09-03T08:49:00.000-07:00

ok broke for 5 months lng... pero malamang 6 because i found some good stuff at the wtc book fair. and i've asked the salespersons to contact we if they find what i'm looking for.

bwisit, ang tagal ko ng wala sa top 8. hay... grabe talaga. this sucks.

i have to read the whole gospel of mark... brilliant

theo recollection. it was fun to some extent. there were just some assholes that i met along the way. ended up bonding with yel. haha. hope you settle your problems :D

brokeback... bwisit.

time spirals coming soon...bwisit.

psych enrichment project wala pa kaming ginagawa... more bwisit...

my room isn't clean. we have no dsl. i'm not getting in shape... pussy...
and yes that's a curse.

also, not getting in the top 8... pussy talaga. hay... there were a lot of fun moments a while ago though. lots of great top decks! haha

i need crucibles and tundras...

pussy...

it's your birthday

2006-09-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

i'm nineteen. wow. isn't that something. oh well. had a great time tonight bonding with old friends. though there wasn't that much bonding (merrily we roll along) as opposed to gaming and just randomly rehashing good times. too bad jaundice and kester weren't there, would've made dota much more fun. disembark haha. there's always sem break. jally wasn't there as well, hope you didn't get dengue, mahirap na ang panahon.

updates, looks like i'll be broke for six months, seven if i decide to get a mana crypt haha. vintage forever!!! go team mf.

aliww has a book sale, i got some really good books. 5 jose saramago books for 350! WOOHOO!!! yeba, my sem break reading has been booked! i also got a poetry book, coffee table book and sionil jose's the pretenders, sequel to the memorable mass from high school. cool. i love it!

going to wtc book sale tomorrow, hope i can find some mtg novels so as to complete my collection :D

things are going well. i hope i do well on sunday!

til next time

2006-08-29T10:25:00.000-07:00

super ranting... don't bother reading. just need to get some stuff out

writing is cathartic they say. there's been a lot of stuff happening in my life right now. a lot of things i need to think about. a lot of things i need to change about myself.

do i lack motivation? i'm lazy, i know. i prioritize the wrong things, i know.
i should work out, i should study harder, i should clean my environment. i should do a lot of things but why can't i bring myself to improve? to change? to be a better person? what's wrong with me? am i so resigned to a mediocre life? am i spoiling myself? i wasn't always like this?

am i angry? yes i am. i'm angry at a lot of things, mostly at myself for all of my screw-ups. i'm angry at a lot of people for all sorts of things. i'm angry at a lot of situations that i cannot control. i'm angry at a lot of situations that i had a control of. i'm angry at the world. i'm angry at my position. pero according to direq, you can't change your position, but you can change your disposition... looks like i have a lot of woosahing to do...

my future? does it look bright? i don't know? i don't know where i'm going or what i'm going to be? maybe i'll just go live in a cave somewhere... dammit! why am i always going for a back-up plan and not focuing on the big picture. i'm afraid to take risks? am i? hence the lack of combo decks i've played so far...hm... short-cuts? why do i always look for short-cuts? why don't i actually work. will i be cramming my whole life? i have to stop comparing myself with others... or particular others. i need to change a lot about myself...

click was a great movie. it was funny but it was philosophical as well centering on its time theme. what am i doing with my time? am i even on the fast lane? how can i slow down if i'm now even speeding up.in life creativity doesn't matter, its sucking up to your boss hoping that you get a piece of what he has in the future, adam sandler's character said that. i don't want my life to be that way. but i want to live comfortably. i don't want to miss everything out because i'm too serious about my work. but i'm not even serious about my work yet i feel like i'm being left out. what's wrong with me...

what do i want to do in life? i want to be a broadcaster. a teacher as back-up. am i taking steps to attain that goal? sometime si wish i weren't living in this era...hay... i want to write, i want to create art and music. but why do i feel like everything i do comes out shitty.
i need more time to do these things. hay... why is my life so cluttered? why?

i've done so much garbage and my productive projects haven't been increasing as of yet. i've been here on this earth for almost two decades, and what do i have to show for it?

what has happened to me?

what am i supposed to do?

lord, ayoko na!!!

p.s. i'm starving for 5 months/living on a very very tight budget. no to gimiks muna.
p.p.s. mana drain, mana drain... yep marcelle's song is stuck on my head...i wonder why...
p.p.p.s. there are so many wolves in sheeps clothing in my immediate environment. i wonder i should do with my so-called "friends." some people change all right, some people grow up to be assholes, some people grow up to be insenstivie and insecure.

what am i growing up to be?

so many things to change...
so many things to do...

oh here's a haiku. cheer up emo kid!

the binds draw closer
until soul and blood concede
lifeless doll is left

last show...for now

2006-08-19T09:12:00.000-07:00

quite a theatrical weekend if i do say so myself! haha first, i went to koine for our koine over coffee reading. we read the whole who's afraid of virginia wolf! scary...so much symbolisms... naks. then the show :D it was great seeing familiar faces! :D hahaha i feel great! being reinforced and all; and receiving compliments for my performance. yeah! haha i'm a good comedian daw according to direq's dad! yeba!!! and some of the audience were encouraging me to continue with my acting. effective/nakakatawa raw ako :D naks! haha lots of things to think about. oh well i just feel very happy about how i did! and then on sunday read the plays for philippine writer's bloc. some were heavy, some were light. i think someone up there is telling me to start writing! no again because i never started it seriously... :D oh well :D

next shows are subtext! aug 25, sept 9,15,16!! nuod kayo :D

gotta playtest for the 26th!

2006-08-11T08:39:00.000-07:00

yebah!!!
opening night is over. i did ok if i do say so myself. i just have to learn to build up the lines... more truth. haha hinga ng malalim...until next week i guess. haha curtain call was fulfilling, most of hte audience were really receptive and happy :D makes me feel good.

hay may nstp bukas...i hope we can finish earlier para makahabol ako sa ptq kobe. i want to go to japan...

tomorrow's my show

2006-08-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

i don't feel like i'm ready yet... argh... carpe diem

homework loading up. so many things to do... so many things i want to do... i need money as well...

delayed

2006-08-03T22:34:00.000-07:00

reads like a diary entry. nothing special.

a lot of things have been delayed. most of my internet life has been delayed because of my disfunctional phone line. this means waiting at least 30 minutes to get a decent connection and then after getting connected i have my connection screw up on me, as in i can't open a single page on any browser... hay...i hope i can get dsl soon.

didn't top eight last week at the tourney. played oath with a time walk. yeah the goodness, walked 7 times, it was fun... 4-2 and at 11th place. will do better this sunday :D screwed up in standard as well 5-2-1 record... i need more mental exercises, i had so many misplays in my last round. hay buhay... and i guess that would be the last qualifier i can attend. i'm not going today though i wish i could because the nstp jeep left me anyway, i have 2 cuts now so it means i can't join next week's pro tour kobe which i was looking forward to so much. this sucks. should've woken up earlier. should've done a lot of things. hay...

more things coming up in school. workload is starting to get heavier. long tests coming and going. filipino was fun, i should've studied everything...because everything came out. abiertas style...sayang talaga...tamuneneng...tamuneneng.

celadon is starting to get things up to speed as well. looks like i'll get active here this year. nothing much in bluerep because i'm not there to attend the newbie workshops or talent nite because of koine rehearsals. acomm...hay having a hard time thinking about my track. i don't even know if i'm on the right track...pun intended hay...

psych longtest coming, two chapters of si tak hay ang haba...com 100 midterm paper and com 101 media sharing...i need to figure this one out soon.

i've been learning a lot more at koine. i hope i can put up a good show and to be worth the ticket.
on a lighter note, i just saw ang aksidenteng kamatayan ng isang anarkista yesterday. it was brilliant. haha a hugfe difference from kaliwete last year but of course that was a newbie play... this one had a powerhouse cast of professors. whoever reads this should go see the play. its funny and satirical. the acting and material are great!

no classes today, i wonder why

2006-07-24T06:34:00.000-07:00

When students heard that there were no classes today, they were all thanking the big G. nope not GMA and her state of the nation address, but the typhoon Glenda for classes cancelled.

It was great to have an extra day of rest since I spent the weekend in tourneys and faring miserably… scored a pack at the vintage tourney but didn’t get in the top eight. Time walking was fun though haha!

Listened to the SONA over the am radio while I was in the car and it was quite funny actually. The country of sycophants and hired clappers were doing quite a great show to one of the most lie-ridden speech ever. Promises again, in a perfect world we all want to think that the promises made would be possible but let’s face it, the way our country has been going, no such luck. Also several parts of the SONA were really laughable, and not applaudable. GMA was boasting about how the 2000 OFWs then grew to 200,000 thousand now!!! BRILLIANT! So she approves of brain drain, whoop de do. Another note was when GMA said that she was willing to face her enemies head on. It was so laughable when she paused for applause then continued to say instead let’s hold each others hand and work together which introduced another barrage of applause; quite brilliant for those who clapped, condoning a sentence spoken just a few seconds ago. Also, it is noted that such an important speech was treated with the inanity of local politicking! Doing a roll call, my God GMA do you really have to buy their hearts that way, you’re the f$%ing president! Have some self-respect!

Cheers to our noon-time show SONA and for the dumbest standing ovation of all!

Looking for a brighter tomorrow in the Philippines??? Only time will tell…

you had a bad day

2006-07-22T07:49:00.000-07:00

300 flew away again... bwisit, this time i had a really sad record. 3-4. grabe nakakaburat talaga oh well. babawi ako bukas! go team MF! lol ako lang magrerepresent.

vintage forever (or as long as may budget)

so many interesting things to get into. so little time... i've been hired by koine again to do old apologies and subtext haha, will post official show dates soon.

update tomorrow.

sana 1st place naman bukas!!!

i haven't cried in a while

2006-07-16T05:10:00.000-07:00

yeah, strange things happen. my sister has gone to australia already. i hugged her hard as she went inside the airport, saying goodbye to us. we all cried. it's funny how when i was young i'd wish for her to just disappear with no remorse. time changes us all i guess, its a part of growing up. its going to be quite a large hole that my family is going to fill. oh well, we'll get used to it. i'm really seeing the value of family these days. and i'm thankful for them.

i love my family.

on a side note:

anyone have curtains? or an external cd rom? i need to borrow them. please contact me if you do have either of the aforementioned items. thanks.

i hope to resolve some of my conflicts by the end of this month. hopefully august will start out with a clean slate.

until another week.

2006-07-11T05:14:00.000-07:00

my blockmate Lee from Saranggola ni Pepe shared this song to us in our media experience. the lyrics really strike the philippines. read on guys, this is noontime show from itchyworms.

Halina at sumama
sa programa na pang -masa
hindi kailangang magaling ka
basta’t bibo’t bongga ka
wala naman kayong alam
(ginagawa kayong tanga)
laging sinusubaybayan

Pumila ng maaga
pumorma ng magara-ha!
malay mo madiscover ka!

Hininintay nila kayo
(ang dami n’yong uto-uto)
itapon na ang utak n’yo

[chorus]
Sali na, dalhin na ang barkada
umuulan dito ng pera
sali na, pati ang pamilya
sa happy-sappy magic plastic
ihaw-ihaw all-time
noontime show

Sumasayaw, umaawit
sila kahit na pangi
walang duda benta sila
dahil guwapo at maganda
hindi naman kayo tanga
(ang dami pa namang iba)
gustong-gusto n’yo pa sila

[bridge]
Sa libu-libong nakatunganga
kami lang ang inyong pag-asa
tumutok na bawat tanghali
wag an wag na kayong babawi
sunod ka na lang sa uso
e ano kung hindi bagay sa’yo
sambahin ang mga artista
sundan ang bawat kilos nila

gasgasin ang mga lumang plaka
hanggang dito na lang ang masa
ganito dapat pumorma
para magmukhang artista

Ganito dapat ang kulay
para umunlad ang buhay
ganito dapat ang banda
pagkanta may epal na artista
hanggang dito na lang ba ang masa?
(hanggang dito na lang ang masa)

[chorus]
Sali na, dalhin na ang barkada
umuulan dito ng pera
sali na, pati ang pamilya
sa happy-sappy magic plastic
ihaw-ihaw all-time
noontime show

another weekend

2006-07-09T09:11:00.000-07:00

3-1... elusive t-shirt. dammit. ok lang, nationals competitor t-shirt nalang!!! NYARNYARNYAR.

saturday was fun. watched SOL with lorina, chelsea, ayro, luzelle afterwards dinner at TOSH with them and then went over to bola's bday celebration. much to my dismay we left just as fast as i arrived...oh well. its for the company anyway.

random stuff with buses.
saturday - edsa to ayala
lesson learned, take the train. since buses break down often here in the philippines...
anyway along guadalupe a bus broke down and the passengers had to transfer to our bus. the conductor was counting them and then suddenly left the bus to ask the other conductor for the exact number of transferees. the driver, however, zoomed past and by the time he had noticed, we were already in boni. the driver stopped and everyone was pissed. some people were randomly swearing and threatening the driver already. some were reasoning, here are random quotable quotables.

threatening

"hoy, kung magutom kami, ano kaya kakainin namin?"
"hindi ko 'to kasalanan"
"eh sino, kaming mga pasahero?"
"wala akong magagawa BLEEP, antayan mo yun konduktor!"
"ikaw kakainin namin!"
"antayan mo yun konduktor, siya kainin niyo!"

reasoning

"kahit sa bicutan lang!"
"onga abante na!"
"baka nasa BEERHOUSE ba!"
the bus moves....................SLOWLY, as in the slowest bus you have ever seen...but SLOWER!!!
"hoy bilisan mo baka nasa bicutan na konduktor mo at hindi tayo napansin" (it was raining)
slowly rolling along...

so hopped off at buendia, took a cab to g4...

sunday - gale to santol

there wasn't much incident until we rounded the corner where you can see sm centerpoint where a huge mass of people were standing around. the conductor was this nosy twit ko shouted at the people to ask what was going on. apparently there was some shooting and someone died. then the conductor was making cracks like shut your windows or you'll get shot and laughing at himself, all the while asking for crude questions and acting like a complete fool. for crying out loud, someone freaking DIED, show some respect. it's not a spectacle or a circus show! i guess this is what the philippines is coming to with all the lines between entertainment and news blurred in our media. if it sells, make them and i guess that is what is happening in today's media. and that is why people are really dumbing down. where else can you see people making cracks about a random person dying? where else can you see people laughing at a person dying? take note that we just passed by. its just so sad to know that there are so many people in our country who are like that. with the masses having that kind of attitude, i really wonder if our country has a chance to move forward. (if you want another example, check out "keys me" at youtube.com and read the comments. though that opens up another avenue of argumentation...)
this is commercialism at its worst. this is when ratings are all networks care about. oh look, DEAD BODY! film it, zoom in on it. it SELLS! there is no reverence, everything is just another show. our lives are just shows for other people to watch. everything can be transformed into something people can consume. and whatever people consume, well the old adage about reaping what you sow is pretty hard on the mark. as always, the government is to blame. there is no control over the media, there is inadequate education for the masses and of course there are thousands of people out there waiting to make millions (yeah kasi hanggang millions lang ang pilipinas) from them. the masses are a huge market, boob tube babies. thats them and its really really sad how they don't think for themselves. but most of all, it is ourselves who are to blame, how can we allow this to happen. was it a sly ploy from the media? or was it unexpected? we don't really know, but we have to change. somehow, we need to make things smarter, and no smarter isn't putting useless trivia on a news show. the lines between news and drama have to be rebuilt. how we can do it, only time will tell...and (shameless plug) the next batch of communication graduates will.

also at the reception (where willard was as well, though didn't get to chat with him, darn!), i was in a table with around 5 kids, ages from 8-17...i feel old but that's not the point. each of them were thumbing around hteir random contraptions, ipods, psps, celphones, u name it. the sad part was my mom kept trying to make conversations with them and they'd just answer with one word then go back to punching furiously on their contraptions. i did this on my phone as well but at least i was polite enough to stand up and shake hands with each of them as well as look people in the eye while answering questions. technology kills connectivity, family and warmth. it is so ironic (ok cliche but it is a daily reminder) that connectivity builds bridges but destroys homes, there has to be a better way to communicate with the same efficiency as our practise today. it was sad to see the faces of the parents. i mean it is a social event after all. while we were talking there were these lapses where the parents would say something about their kids and then receive blank faces in response. i wouldn't want my kids to be that way but i guess it is out of the parents's control already because the children have already been exposed to too much media and technology and apparent convenience. easier isn't happier, that's a lesson that people will have to get down in their heads.

i realize that i am ranting about these things and that i also practice these things i condemn but we'll see what i can do to change that and the world.

decisions

2006-07-06T07:19:00.000-07:00

ok i'm in a generally lighter mood. i'm really looking forward to saturday: meeting old friends from different circles. i have an lrt prepaid card again, mababaw ba? try falling in line at rush hour. i might get dsl in the next month hehe. old apologies rehearsals are interesting, nuod kayo ah guys!!! dropped by sjcs yesterday on an errand, when i reached the fifth floor, "you can't stop the beat" was playing, so naturally lapit ako, yeah hairspray! it was annabelle's group who was doing it and i unwittingly choreographed their finale. lots of changes in sjcs. for one thing table tennis tables are at the fifth floor. it was weird seeing new faces in the team. and sadly most of the good players have graduated. while i was watching their drills i already knew that they weren't at all as gifted as the previous batches. oh well... catched up with a lot of people. kakaiba talaga, even though we were only orgmates i was happy to see perpetua, francesca and a whole lot more people. and of course seeing dom and my baby again! haha. grabe talaga. a trip back to the school i want to blow up is...nostalgic oh well.

so now i'm rather laid-back. hitched a ride with mama tep again and went down at gilmore to canvass flash disk prices. and i actually have enough money to buy a fd right now. however the big dilemma right now is...

MANA CRYPT vs. 1 GB FLASH DISK

lauren what have you done to me...

until here. more updates to come the next few days ought to be exciting and fun!

another weekend over

2006-06-25T08:02:00.000-07:00

woah, it's been a while since i've updated. well lots of stuff has been happening over the past week. classes have started so i'm busy again. i like all of my professors except well my theo prof. tagalog kasi lahat eh, ano ba yan hindi niyo ba matanto? hindi ako mahusay sa pakikipagtalastasan sa tagalog sapagkat ... hahaha oh well.

i've just been casted to do old apologies for koine! haha yey! and micki's my scene partner again!!! haha ok now i get slapped, preparation for subtext 1 :D and also subtext might go on tour, hope i get into that, sounds fun and exciting!!!

been moving around the city a lot these days. adventures as i like to call it happen when i, on a whim, take a random route to go somewhere. on my way to g4 the other day to meet some traders, i went down near edsa, thanks rod for dropping me off :D, and took a bus to ayala. i'm getting down things that i've read in fil12, walking in the city. the sights, sounds, shouts, lights, lifts of the city as i ride through it. the other day i saw some kids sniffing rugby, near stop and shop beside the police stations. there are vendors selling odds and ends on buses as well. one time as i was heading home from galleria, or was it to bola's house there were some kids passing out an envelope asking for money for their sister who was still completing her studies, i didn't have money at the time but i did see one lady give them some cash, but not without grilling the kids about where their sister was studying, what year she was in and so on. that's life here inthe philippines i guess, there are a lot of scammers in all the senses of the word and in all kinds of places. peanuts are always there, they taste good by the way. sometimes you see celphone cases, pinoy treats and random accessories. the odd thing was, while i was on the bus on the way to ayala, there was this girl who passed around cards saying that she was a self-supporting student who made special macapuno balls and polvoron, i was about to buy some, to deviate from my routine peanuts when i noticed that the packaging of the sweets were really well made and looked very much like the stuff you saw in bakeries, though they all look alike i thought there was something fishy so i didn't buy any, peanuts nalang 5 pesos lang masarap pa!!! i asked zar for another bus route home, adventure eh he gave me directions to the lawton bus, but if i were to take that bus i had to walk a long way daw. it was on a whim so walk i decided to do. haha anyway as i was going home from makati, i ran into george. haha it was great seeing an old friend, we walked around and chatted then he grabbed dinner, i was saving money coz of some purchases i made. so while we were talking at the table, a girl came by and passed around envelopes, this time saying she was selling dried mangoes. ok... now it wouldn't mean that much to me but the envelopes that she was passing was exactly the same with the envelopes the macapuno balls girl was passing a while ago. scammers... that's really sad, oh well. after saying goodbye to george i walked my way to the lawton bus, which was a very very long walk. i waited there for na hour before the bus moved, and well learned a valuable lesson: do not sleep in buses. woke up at quiapo church...was supposed to get down at legarda since the bus didn't pass lawton. and in my apparently disoriented mood, i immediately went down the bus and made the trek home. it was until i made three wrong turns around the quiapo underpass that i realized that i shouldn't have had gone down because the bus would have passed near lawton where i could grab a jeep. but no sense in going back now sine quiapo was deathly quiet... so i made the sprint walk home. passed by the market, sm, sta cruz, dasma, binondo it quite a short time, partly because i was scared to death and partly because i was really hungry and thirsty and i needed to go home to recharge. so needless to say, i got home without any incident and well that's it.

i'm cleaning the room again, at least this time there are notable changes, i'm finally utilizing the cabinet spaces and i've discovered around 10 pairs of pants, of course some are recent hand-me-downs ahhahaha but this means i will have to go shopping for tops. yeah!

the last tourney at sports and magic hobby shop has ended.
it is sad to see such a great thing end. the community and fun of all the players, oh well i am gonna miss that. it was great to see so many people today. finished in 3rd place, well, you can only topdeck so much in a day though i could have used some swords in crucial moments. it was a very diverse meta i guess though fcg and oath ran rampant today, we also had the usual sui black and permutations of fish/wtf/landstill. the top 8, including me, featured new stuff though with my ww/b or whiter than mike deck and cholo's rock deck and cheng's hulk smash. i had some crazy and exciting matches today, and with the friendly and fun environment, that's really tasting the magic. too bad marcelle wasn't there haha it would've been fun to sing along with the laptop which was playing songs the whole day.

until the next tourney i guess

VINTAGE FOREVER
TEAM MF RULES

summer is over

2006-06-17T22:57:00.000-07:00

so much for ending the summer with a bang, finished at nat's qualifiers with a 5-3 record, 28th place so i'm home with no packs and 300 donated to NG, oh well at least tataas ratings ko, haha got to play with one of the basilio twins, it was fun. anyway, let's see how my summer goals have racked up so far...

1. clean room CHECK ...though i have to do it again
2. master two pieces i've been trying to master for a while p for procrastination
3. learn the damn arpeggio in fur elise p for procrastination
4. get driver's license CHECK, student's lang next month pa non-pro
5. do well over the summer classes CHECK, 3.00 QPI, that's not as high as i wanted but it's alright...
6. get into arts p for procrastination
7. gimik with barkada inc CHECK (Mall of Asia sucks, looks nice though)
8. learn adobe photoshop!!! haha p for procrastination
9. get into better shape p for procrastination
10. gimik with cobs and co. not my fault...
11. find a place to stay during the school year. looks like i'll be staying in binondo for another year so ... hay...
12. get 7-8 hours of sleep every time, no more...no less... CHECK, after summer classes 10 hours a day

wasted a summer i guess...again... oh well shit happens.

random stuff again

2006-05-26T09:00:00.000-07:00

so many things have happened, haven't updated in a while.

i'm back from scholar's night which fish and mark missed coz they went to the wrong place. all my rehearsals are over, unless you count bluerep's stages of love. haha just can't seem to stop biting. do i have time for myself? i do not know. do i make time for myself, to find myself, to isolate a little corner of the sky for myself? do i try to change myself. lot's of stuff is wrong with me i know, and there are so many things i wnat to do, i need to do oh well that's life i guess, ridden with challenges and questions, otherwise who would want to live infinitely bored. anyway, the show was great, haha lupit ng koine kids sumayaw! karylle is pretty :D haha danced with relative lightness though i knew if we were going to get notes, my facial expressions or lack of it and projections would be the subject of a long dance lesson. i saw truth in the shcolars' performances, nympha's song number at the last was heart-rending i don't know what it is but i felt really warm and fuzzy inside. haha truth. that's quite a goal. love. family. honesty. clarity. i hope i can deliver all of these every time i perform.

other stuff would be seeing children play. yeah i'm old. kids look great when they're happy. they don't have a care in the world. or so we think anyway but the way they play it's as if they enjoy every moment, and i'm sure they do. but the great thing about children is that when they make-believe, play house or something, they are their characters. beautiful. just beautiful.

the summer semester is about to end, i have to cram all of jap in my head. finish my fil final paper and make a stupid journal for pe. putting off things is bad. i should change. i will change.

the weird thing was after i left st scho tonight i thought about my new friends at koine. bummed a ride with burn, thanks dude! :D and pj and i were hugging each other during company call, i wonder if i will ever see them again. i've had so much fun with them. i've learned a lot from them, from burn's mugs to pj's adlibs. and we've shared so much with each other, anecdotes, jokes, company. i'm gonna miss them, i hope i'll be able to tour with them. makes you wonder a lot about life. first of all i guess there's a bunch of people over at sjcs that i've already forgotten or neglected. then there are the hundreds of people i have met over my freshmen year. lots of random people but the people i got close with in my chem block, pe block, and so on. haha things and times change. it is true i guess what htey say about friends coming and going. and soon some of my closest friends will be leaving me as well. they're choosing their own paths, making their choices, setting themselves up for success and where am i? what am i doing? hay...

just recalled a while ago. during my second show, when i bit my finger, i heard a lady say "ginagawa ko yan" while giggling. that made my day. that proved to me that i was being truthful. haha well next time i hope i can ge thte whole audience to say that for the whole duration of the play!

what a weekend...

2006-05-21T06:32:00.000-07:00

alright did my second and last? (hopefully not) show of subtext. apparently i was brilliant in my first show, i liked how i did but i was mentally racking up my mistakes, i had more in my head than what direq mentioned haha oh well. i really should keep track of all my good notes as well, hay... its hard to be consistent if you don't remind yourself how well you did... lessons learned... i guess i really had chemistry with micki! :D though i liked my show with sweet as well, pinawisan ako nun!
well i guess my stint in subtext for this season is over, subtext 1 naman sa sunod hahaha! got dance rehearsals to look forward to pa! yeah! wtf were you thinking all the way.

top 8 ako kina mike kanina! woohoo landstill pa rin!!! for once nakapagtop at ID ako...pero pagpasok sa semis well...si marcelle katapat, friggorid...that was just too weird. hahaha marami pala kaming nayari ng friggorid, nigz and i were playing casually when we suddenly mused about missing doomsday hahaha. my arcane lab was lonely the whole day...aw... had a bundle of laughs, as always! yeah! super ape deck! and i managed to do well against fcgs without any anti-red sbs hahaha! swerte talaga ako today, except maybe sa poker. did make stupid mistakes while playing with marcelle though pero...hahhahaa gabi na rin at inuuhaw. but still, i'm pretty happy with how i performed, yeah!

lists

2006-05-15T09:09:00.000-07:00

ok, dancing is fun. two hours with relatively quick choreo ... haha. this has to be in my WTF were you thinking list! though strangely, most of my WTF were you thinking moments are about getting into dancing. haha go figure. at least i'm getting exercise and hopefully...better? :D neways whoever is reading this, please do buy tickets for scholar's night, it's a celebration of koine scholars! and i'll be dancing there :D. contact ME for tickets, they're available in 100, 200, 500 and 1000 denominations. it's on the 26th at st scho, st cecilia's hall.

ok realistic goals for summer.
1. get driver's license
2. fix the tin number
3. create... fill in the blanks
4. finish poems
5. get better on the piano

things to buy
1. wardrobe (joy, shopping spree na kc tayo eh...)
2. usb flash
3. laptop? :D
and so much more... hay buhay...

subtext pictorials

2006-05-10T18:23:00.000-07:00

Burn & PJ : SUBTEXT 1

Micki : Subtext 2

Ozy & Sweet : Subtext 2

Laura & Pao : Subtext 1

nice shots, interested? call 4104485 for ticket reservations! :D

ba't walang picture ni karl sa multiply ni micki??

shameless plug

2006-05-08T09:54:00.000-07:00

my show dates are on may 13 (this saturday) and 19 (next week friday)!!! contact 4104485 for ticket reservations. woohoo! hope i can pull off a great show! :D

anyways, had my first dance rehearsal a while ago. i'm tired but ok. it was literally back-breaking haha. two hours of dancing...i was already panting after warm-ups. oh well, at least it's good cardio work! haha, it really amazes me how talented people can be. Koine rules! haha the kids dance better than me... for now... :D

anyways, no new entries coz i've just been bumming around campus. i am relatively happy as i've started reading more mtg novels as well as purchased three more of them haha, but on the downside..it sucks to be broke. oh well i hope my new "business" will change that.

found some interesting things on the net today...

2006-05-03T17:32:00.000-07:00

it's a sex IQ test. take it at your own risk. there might be somethings about yourself that you wouldn't want other people to know. btw i scored a 70 out of a hundred. haha

and also...

check this out, yes i am very very very bored...

i'm stuck here at the rsf for four hours... extremely...bored... cut me some slack.

theatre and interaction

2006-04-29T09:42:00.000-07:00

a lot of things have been happening recently. lots of interesting things. went to camille's debut the other day. food was great! venue was really nice as well. had my fortune told via tarot which was refreshing for a change. it was a series of 5 questions, not exactly a reading but i'll take what i can get... :D

next up, spent the night at cobang's. haha it'd been a while since he and i talked. it was fun. bonding over austin powers. thats really random.

well the quitting dota thing didn't work i guess. haaaaaaaaaay i guess it's just a matter of self-control and choosing when to play.

finished the day FOH ing at Koine. as well as studying my role more. it is exhilarating to see another treatment of the character you are playing. papu did a great job! as did micki (and i wouldn't believe anyone is they said you were pangit :D) burn and pj were great, as usual haha. met kate, who did subtext 3 with dingdong. wow, it's a very touching piece. haha i'm appreciating theatre a lot more, seeing brilliant texts, blocking, directing, acting and so on. wow.
watching from the side, i got to see the audience as well, it was priceless. seeing those people smile and laugh so hard, that is fulfillment, entertaining people. in the end, when we were cleaning up the theatre, the koine kids were all in bed playing around with the sheets and pillows. it was one of those things that you see in a movie played on slow motion. you could see happiness and light shining in their eyes. i respect direq for doing what he can to help these kids. i hope i can be like him someday.

"you are changed"

2006-04-27T09:18:00.000-07:00

three very powerful words.

let's just say i got a taste of my own medicine, a life lesson, a psychologic shock therapy all in one go. let's hope i am changed, to be a better person and a better actor.

koine RULES!

had a look at the subtext poster and a picture card... hehe whee :D let's hope i can be as truthful as i should be.

just tired...

2006-04-26T08:59:00.000-07:00

i'm tired, but happy. did you ever feel that way before? i feel fulfilled. i LOVE koine. i feel great there, not because people act nice and friendly but because people are genuinely friendly, lovable, and disciplined. direq niel de mesa is great! he's a wonderful director, talented performer, and brilliant writer...among other things. he's so fun to be around with, partly because he can crack a joke at ANY moment and at ANY thing. it was great to have a stop and go session with him. so many nuances within the first few minutes. i'm learning so much. about the truth, acting, loving your craft, my gifts, mugging, beat changes... haha overloading but its so great to have someone telling me things i can do to improve instead of people pointing out my mistakes. i have a good feeling about this production. haha will be dozing off in a while.

thank you God, for everything... for my opportunities... for my chances...

i can do this!!!

i am officially quitting DotA, unless may manglibre. money is hard to come by these days. magic will be my only um...vice. though i'm thinking of quitting standard as well. oh well... i'm gonna have to once again revise my things to do list as i really don't see myself having enough time to do them. mostly with the piano playing. argh... oh well. maybe i'll get into writing more... japanese characters as well...hay pamatay talaga pag summer classes oh well.

more stuff going on...

2006-04-25T19:01:00.000-07:00

didn't score a t-shirt at the prerelease. oh well, dammit ba't kasi si mau yun na match up sa akin sa first round pa lang. dinaya ako!!! hahahaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy... got all sorts of crap and the team has no duals from the new set. this sucks. i'm not sure if i can afford to keep along with standard. maybe i'll quit standard after ravnica and just play vintage for fun...i want power...

went to my cousin's wedding last sunday. will post a picture of her here when i start uploading my phone pix.

Its strange seeing women in their wedding gowns. they look so beautiful, and white, and happy. you really go aw........ or cry just by looking at the couple march down the aisle. getting married, that\s a large step in life. to find a partner whom you can share the rest of your days with and remain loyal to him/her naks naman. either way i have to start working harder.

more rehearsals coming along. koine is a fun place to be. it has a homey atmosphere haha problem is i think i'm spending too much time on rehearsals and the subsequent commute that i can\t do my homework. i'm behind one exercise in jap now and i haven't read ANY of my required readings in fil... Lord help me...

yet another day

2006-04-20T07:53:00.000-07:00

i'm getting worn out day by day.

first day of summer class. 7:30 AGAIN... this is not right. at least emjo and darryl are my blockmates in jap haha yey. free cut, quite a first day. bummed around school until i met yel! who bummed around with me until we met dobs, who had the key to galian. yey. then we proceeded to bum around until lunch/12--our next class. thats quite a lot of time i've wasted. but oh well at least i have people with me. it was fun bonding with yel. and as usual, dobs brings up the most interesting things.

fil was interesting enough haha magkaklase kami ni jeff (we had the same professors from first sem to second sem and now summer wow) as well as a couple of my fil 11 blockmates. yey.

headed over to howell's to bum around for a while. lost a bet, dammit, i'm set back 500. this'll teach me to be accurate about my information or ignore such trivial things... hay oh well

20 minutes early at rehearsals, whoo and i thought i was going to be late leaving legarda at 5. for some reason the traffic at the mrt isn't that bad anymore even though it IS rush hour. summer i guess, less students.

one on one with sweet today, really comprehensive rehearsal, a full run. i need to fix so much about my acting. and i really have to get my character down right, from diction to tone, to the list goes on and on. it is a great thing for me, acting. the experience is unreal. it's nice to be someone else for a change. but i need to be dedicated to this. i want to be dedicated to this. but does my life have enough room for this...

after rehearsals, direq niel invited sweet and i to watch jesus cries with kenneth and laura, two people whom i really admire. i could really seee how dedicated kenneth was, even when direq was talking with the kids, he was internalizing his character. his gestures are so real. and laura, haha everyone is impressed with her. her voice matches the character so well. she plays the role so well, well partly because i do see her saying those lines in real life haha but oh well. she's really something, she has great grades and the passion for her passions. but most of all, i really respect direq niel. he's such a great guy. he's got a great sense of humor and is extremely talented. the plays i've seen which he wrote are beautiful and speak to the audience. it is amazing how he directs, everything is calculated and apt. and he can inject humor to anything as well. the best thing about direq is that he is pursuing his passions. and he works hard. he deserves good things. i hope koine grows to be bigger and be a recognized institution all over the philippines.

got home at 9:45 today. this is so wrong, i'm getting home only 15-45 minutes earlier than my blue revue days. i'm getting really tired, damn commute. takes so much time. oh well. i hope things get better for me. i really have to start shaping up.

another day.......

2006-04-18T07:17:00.000-07:00

it is really hot these days. the weather makes people sluggish. its amazing though that i was able to get up early this morning and make it to admu for enlistment. sose enlistment was rather disorganized, had to do it for howell haha. at least i had company, mau, carmen, and marian were with me... under the heat, crowded among students, waiting...

running around admu a couple of hours later, enlistment (for howell) was done, i have to go back tomorrow for my nonrequired subjects...pray for me.

i think i have to redo my things to do list. i won't be able to join the master class hahaha di pumayag yun professor. darn, it was about 20th century euro lit+doctorate russian novel. haha nerdy i had no idea what i was thinking, but it is interesting...

i quick dota session later then i hopped off to rehearsals. i was half an hour early but it's ok, had more time to memorize my lines. i had a great time again. good, clean fun. best i've had in a while. i have to start rehearsing the longer tagalog bits.

the commute home took a lot out of me. i don't know why i suddenly felt exhausted when i reached home. walk, train, walk, train, jeep, walk... haha oh well at least i get exercise everyday.

and now i'm here typing away again. gonna change that master class thing to get drivers license this summer! haha.

i want to see some of my friends this summer. i miss my co-workers from high school. a change of scenery. i need a break. damn commute.

renewed things to do list:
1. clean room CHECK
2. master two pieces i've been trying to master for a while
3. learn the damn arpeggio in fur elise
4. get driver's license
5. do well over the summer classes
6. get into arts
7. gimik with barkada inc
8. learn adobe photoshop!!! haha
9. get into better shape
10. gimik with cobs and co.
11. find a place to stay during the school year.
12. get 7-8 hours of sleep every time, no more...no less...

when you're bored... hehe

2006-04-16T04:22:00.000-07:00

This is "On the Wings of Morning" by Rob Alexander and here are some poems that i suddenly cooked up...

On the Wings of Morning

For: M

The phoenix passes

Silhouettes ebb

A column is laid-bare

Standing tall, unblemished

Belying the rains of yesterday

Hindsight

For: P

He tears open his scars

Reveling in the purity

Of his crimson cadaver

He tears open his head

Drunk in the glory

Of his decisions

He tears open his heart

Basking in the scarlet

Memories of wholeness

on a side note, i've complete my first summer task! i've cleaned my room! haha yeah!

music speaks

2006-04-13T07:46:00.000-07:00

while trying to fulfill some of my resolutions... trying is the word. i wondered how these artists created their masterpieces. i had listened to maksim's version of somewhere in time yesterday. and as i played it at home, i wondered if i would ever write music as beautiful as that. i wondered if i could ever play so passionately. and for the first time in my life, i tried to feel the music. i tried to understand why beethoven composed fur elise (for elise). and while i was playing the song, snippets were coming in my mind, the life perhaps of beethoven. the song starts out emotionally then shifts to a more lively tone then shifts back then gets to something i can't really explain, it sound like it was narrating something tense. the (damn) arpeggio follows and its back to the base melody. it must have been a whirlwind romance, or maybe something forbidden. to create something with so much passion and life... i wonder when i will get the chance to do that. to compose my own music, to write my own plays/scripts, have a collection of poems published...

gan bei!

2006-04-12T07:08:00.000-07:00

apparently, i wasn't the only person who was bored. what followed was a six-hour long dota marathon. yes, we have no life. but at least, we're together! haha it is fun though to see each other again. afterwards, jaundice and i headed off to howell's for a dvd marathon! haha. random stuff happened, as usual then driving mishap stories. haha then the dvd marathon begins! we start off with just like heaven. it's very cheesy but it's not that bad. i wonder how it is to fall in love again. interesting stuff. afterwards, we watched munich... yeah its terroristic in nature, jaundice was really interested...go-figure. dozed off. film was too inconsistent. leonard's version had a backstroke of the west-esque subtitle sequence it was really funny, until howell turned the subtitles off...aw...

the morning after, jaundice hogged the pc. haha dota-freak. then we had lunch. did some more random stuff. i received a dinner invitation from the tdk i was tutoring haha. what followed was very awkward moments, being alone with her my semi-literate chinese tongue haha. oh well managed to last he night. first time i had ching tao beer! finished a bottle haha it is soo good! woohoo, its beer that doesn't taste like water! :D

i got half of my salary today, woot!!! hahaha

btw...here's a little things to do list that i'll be copy pasting here everytime.
1. clean room
2. master two pieces i've been trying to master for a while
3. learn the damn arpeggio in fur elise
4. get another job
5. do well over the summer class
6. join a master class
7. gimik with barkada inc
8. learn adobe photoshop!!! haha
9. get into shape
10. get into capoeira more, though this can be delayed until i have a stronger body hahaha
11. find a place to stay during the school year.
12. get another job!

and the boredom hits...

2006-04-10T09:23:00.000-07:00

summer is officially in and my list of to-do lists is staring at me in the face. needless to say, i've been bumming. i haven't reached many of my quotas. i need a summer job. another summer job. two more summer jobs. to make enough money for that ever elusive set of mana drains... haha WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME LAUREN!!! and i can't really do much without figuring out my summer classes schedule! dammit, this isn't fair... well at least i'm sleeping better. 7 -10 hours a day. you just don't get that during the school year. except i'm sleeping the whole morning away everyday. fuck this. i can't wake up from my alarm clock anymore. i don't get it. it buzzes me up at 5 am back in the school year. this just isn't right...at least my room is a bit cleaner. all i have left to clean is my cabinet!!! haha yeah! all of my cards are organized bola, we should do the same with yours. my hands get tired so easily now, hay buhay...

legacy tourney was a disappointment with me finishing with a 3-3 record... at least 4-2 sana para maayos pero...oh well wrong metagame call. i did have a great learning experience watching 2 metagame combo decks run. iggy pop is fun. next time... slivers na!!! hahaha nah, kay naps yan eh. oh well... until the next big tourney hits. prerelease of dissension. hope i score a t-shirt this time.

i want dsl. went download-happy at fish's house. i have a lot of rent footage here hahaha oh well. i hope i get the classes that i want, just got my advisement slip...apparently my fil 12 IS required... no getting out of summer classes. went to ADMU today...it was just too hot. i wonder how i'd last during the summer semester. btw who is the PE teacher that people hate? help me... and any filipino teachers that i should be wary of?

had my favorite bowl of fish congee today at wai ying. i think it's bigger when you eat there than when they give it to you for take out. i don't know. it tasted really good. it always does. haha wish i could have it for breakfast all the time. then again maybe not all the time, i may get sick of it eventually. hayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy i'm yakking...i know. i'm bored...

i need to start learning more jeepney routes. fucked up by taking a harrison jeep instead of a mabini jeep a while ago. set me back 50 for the trike ride. english isn't that easy to teach. haha verbs... english is complicated if you don't practice it. oh and my chinese grammar isn't so bad hahaha! just have to keep practicing, eventually i will be able to communicate effectively...i hope.

and i seriously need to get into shape... and a decent hairstyle. and an allowance raise. and so much more... oh well. getting ideas in my head. i hope i get more these days. i need some stimulation.

ramblings

2006-04-07T10:31:00.000-07:00

RENT

i finally got the chance to watch it! and it was great!!! it is still showing in greenbelt three though for you guys who haven't seen it. oi howell, leo, kester!!! kayo yan haha i wouldn't mind watching it again. some parts however, were...weird? an the first number, whats with the throwing burning stuff outside thing? did all of them know benny was coming? if they were making heat it didn't make sense at all if they were to just throw it outside. it was visually entertaining though. the i should tell you was rather weird with the gang immediately catching wind of the whole situation. living in america was an mtv. i'll cover you reprise...was just too weird. but all in all it was a great movie! it was moving. the delivery was great. i do miss the angsty side of mark though, they gave that right to the typical "rocker"... oh well. i didn't like their choice for maureen, the blonde in the bootleg i've seen was better.

the songs, on their own have so much meaning but the choreography/movement of the actors puts more meaning into them. santa fe was fun. la vie boheme is brilliant! out tonight...(sorry lalaki eh...) darn, why did they have to cut contact! haha.

several songs realy hit home. a lot of them really touch a person. without you is a very beautiful song. i wonder if i will ever sing that to someone... but oh well. seasons of love (was placed at the start???) will be seasons of love. i'll cover you and without you makes your heart melt... i'm not sure if i am coherent but this isn't a review anyway. to whoever reads my blog and hasn't seen the movie, WATCH IT!!!

PHOTOGRAPH

was sorting out pictures in the pc... i didn't notice how much i missed certain people until i did so. i didn't notice the great times i had with these people too...i wish i had taken more pictures...with me in them naman!!! haha its starting to be a bad thing to be too unvain. the smiles on their faces mean a lot to me. they bring me back to a time when things weren't so complicated and everyone just went by day in and day out. so many events in my life...i see myself frozen there, hugging someone, or holding someone's hand, or performing. my frozen life, an interesting concept... i miss that rush of euphoria, that warmth of someone special, the camaraderie between co-workers and friends...

there's still a lot more time anyway.

SUBTEXT

first rehearsal! haha was late, i think. i really have to start estimating the traffic in between stations correctly.

the whole rehearsal was fun! warm-ups were a bundle of laughs as usual. there were new tongue-twisters! haha i miss laura! how the heck can you possibly say aklat ng pangkatagalugan quickly haha that's insane... will practice it though haha.

SOMNAM & Huling Ensayo

Koine is fun! i watched these shows tonight and they were great! the script, the acting, everything! it's great to see intellectual albeit comedic and dramatic plays here in the philippines!kenneth adn vica were awesome!!!

random plug...

what event in your life would you want us to write/do a play about?

lovelife...and subsequent lack thereof...

haha funny how past relationships can affect a person... somnam is strange in that sense that i was thinking about my shoulda, coulda, woulda... hm...oh well maybe i'll sleep on it!!! :D

watched ice age2 the other day with barkada inc. and i saw phoebe again. it was just weird seeing her in the same place where we used to date...except we weren't together anymore... am i still in love i wonder...or in love with an idea... i don't think i've moved on at all from my idiotic high school phase... my Fumoon... i wonder if i'll ever make that dream come true. i'll be glad if she even pinches me though... haha

quite a weekend...

2006-04-02T09:02:00.001-07:00

OVERNIGHT
haha summer's out and so are the students, time to relax and chill with friends. apparently, howell was extremely bored hence the impromptu overnight. NO POKER CHIPS??? NO PROBLEM, we bet on CANDIES!!! hahah sad...eventually we will gather enough people for a real poker night. eventually...mau, get back here dammit!!!

CAPOEIRA

had my first go at capoeira. it was fun! thank you kester for introducing me to such a fun and relaxing exercise. i need to improve a lot about myself, i learned a lot about capoeira that day. first, perfect the cartwheel. after the whole thing was over, we had a roda which is what people see in capoeira demonstrations where we "play." it was great to see real capoeira dancers doings what they do. and it was fun to join in their "play" even though it was my first time and i screwed up a lot, it was an great experience, deserving another go. and no kester, my body didn't hurt afterwards!!! hahaha. the best thing about capoeira, for me, is the music. it is more than music, it is a projection of what capoeira is about and how it must flow. the music pumps the dancers, it dictates their speed, it frees them from their baggage so they can dance as fluidly as they can.

afterwards had to run around manila to pick up stuff for the proxy tournament the next day. i hadn't even fixed my deck much less playtest with it. oh well... had heavy traffic at recto, apparently someone got run over and as i got off my jeep to make the long walk i heard a man screaming, it was a nerve-wracking sound...and i saw him unable to get up, writhing in pain. the one person who was trying to help him couldn't touch him as he was shouting. some police where there, i'm not too sure whether or not they were doing anything. i didn't know what to do about this either but it was a very disturbing thing to see and hear.

PROXY TOURNAMENT

had a hectic morning fixing cards then we finally proceeded to the venue. the tournament didn't have a lot of people though which was sad. i was really looking forward to seeing a lot of people to test my skills. finished at 6th place but i know i could've done better. i made a lot of misplays which cost me two matches. well, charge it to experience i guess. gifts requires deep thought and being very patient. i hope i will get better. and i will, thanks marco, go combo whenever i can! yawgmoth's win all the way!

rentheads

2006-03-23T07:05:00.001-08:00

BlueREP parties rock! thanks Macky (who is an excellent mixer) for all the drinks, coconut rhum is love...it was fun and "intimate", shared some stories while we drank booze at a penthouse with the makati skyline around us. it was really cool, the higher you are i guess, the wind really felt great. and as more people came, so began the cam whoring... will post pictures here once i figure out how to work a blog... :D... anyway the party ended (for me) with everyone singing. songs from Rent in particular. it's great to see people relate to the songs and sing with such emotion. we've all had our experieces with the songs, that's why we all sing them with so much passion. Rent is about friendship and life and i'm glad to have found an org whom i can share both my passions and life with.

can't wait for the movie

woohoo, i have a blog

2006-03-13T18:26:00.000-08:00

i finally have a blog! i'm in the rsf with yel, both of us bored to death. at least ako hindi naglalaro ng games!!! peace tayo yel; gawa ka rin blog. anyways still procrastinating...bad ok off to the lib to do homework now! pasado na ako filipino this sem woot!!!